I originally wrote this in November, 2009. With the new tools available. I thought I would update & consolidate some of the information. "Under Construction" Sign hung. MD
Looks like he is getting out "early"...who would have guessed?
you can search the pos....here with his DC# below....
To: Inmate Brian Michael Lane, Florida Department of Corrections, DC# C02830
As the 1st year anniversary of your conviction comes around, I find myself thinking of you, and your choices.
At your sentencing, your final words came when you turned to me and said, "you know me". Well in a way you were right and the guilt I have felt has all but destroyed my family. The first time I met you I knew what you were capable of in my gut. But, I let your boss at the day care convince me I was wrong.
I have been told you were a victim as a child, as if that should stand as an excuse. I was molested from age 5 through 7. Then my mother threw me out when I was around 13 and I lived on the streets until I was 15 where I was raped on several occasions. Not one time have I thought about passing that hell on to another child! I was certainly damaged by it, but children have never been on the possibility table as a place to act out on my my anger and shame. It simply doesn't hold up as a valid reason for what you did.
Another thing you said that day was, "I didn't hurt anybody". Well I have a 6 year old boy who over the past 2 years has been in constant trouble for physically attacking other kids and disrespecting authority. I am the only male adult he completely trusts and he in generally an angry hateful little boy. His 7 year old brother and 4 year old sister are developing fine, so it is not whether you hurt anyone, but how much. As you and I both know, (hopefully on your part by now), in very different ways, the damage from your crime never really goes away.
The little bit of faith I had is gone. I have a tough time buying into a God that lets 4 year old children be sexually assaulted at nap time in preschool or anywhere else for that matter. If there is a God, he/she/it certainly would have the option of forgiving you. I never will. I do however have to let it go and find a way to put a period on my rage toward you or my life, along with my family's will never be good again and likely will completely fall apart.
It is my wish that you were never getting out of prison. I have no doubt my son was not the first, and given the opportunity he most certainly will not be the last. I did everything I could short of putting a 4 year old on the stand to insure you received the maximum of 25 to life, but 20 years it what we got.
I hope you get whatever you need in prison to insure no other child is violated by you. Take full advantage of whatever they offer.
The Father of your 4 year old victim